I hope it gives some relief sharing here and those thoughts and feelings being recognised by so many of us.
I've never organised anything like that, not even close. But I recognise how I am able to tolerate arranging anything, a little less each year. My capacity for anything 'extra' is drastically reducing. I try to keep a check on my energy levels these days as the balance is very easily unsettled.
I can relate to so many points—managing energy levels (when it feels like I'm entering a stage of life where they're in shorter in supply), being present with my family, keeping my body healthy, keeping burnout at bay (that's a lesson I don't need again, AND writing, which I love, but it requires headspace and time—as you know. It all feels like too much some days, honestly. And it takes time to find yourself again after being thrown off.
I really admire your honesty and willingness to share this vulnerable moment. You are most certainly not alone! Wishing you deep rest and energy restored.❤️
Beautiful honest sharing Claire and one of the key issues of our time, how we live sustainably within our energies as women. I’ve done some big work over the past 5 years with Alexandra Pope ( Wise Power & Wild Power and have been living well and creating within the inner seasons of my menstrual cycle. Now post menopause I’m guided by the moon cycle… it’s been a game changer for me…with fatigue post big health issues in my forties and as a new writer in my fifties. I resonated with how you felt leaving the quiet autumn, winter energy of the home, even though you were nourished by the summer energy of the festival. ❤️
Thanks for sharing this Claire. This is something I'm wrestling with at the moment, how to do enough things that bring me life and are good for me, without overdoing it, as I need lots of energy for my kids as a mum and parent carer. Add in changing hormones and lack of sleep and it's tough. I miss the energy and freedom of my twenties, but need to adjust and embrace this new stage with wisdom and grace!
An awful lot, Claire. I’m not surprised you were a little short on reserves. Jonathan and I were chatting about how a trip to Edinburgh can now feel like our old trips to London. Everything feels so fast compared to our life here in the Borders.
I withdrew from Story Fest because I knew it would be a lot for me emotionally (being away from baby) but also energetically.
Hope you’ve managed to come home to yourself this weekend. I’ve felt disconnected too and feel the moon had a part to play 🌝
Really enjoyed listening to this. I totally get the whole nervous system shake-up and the awareness of how doing something like the festival has a knock-on effect. You have a lot to juggle and navigate, and I’m glad you acknowledge this.
Your voice note also reminded me that I’d thought about recording short notes and that maybe I should just do it and stop thinking about it.
So lovely to listen to this and your honest feeling about it all, only makes me love you more! Totally understand about festival energy, having done events in my corporate life I can totally relate, it’s a massive high and then exhaustion and a flat feeling afterwards. On Monday I fell asleep on the sofa at 4pm, and I was only a visitor! Keep looking after you, and thanks for sharing ❤️
I hope it gives some relief sharing here and those thoughts and feelings being recognised by so many of us.
I've never organised anything like that, not even close. But I recognise how I am able to tolerate arranging anything, a little less each year. My capacity for anything 'extra' is drastically reducing. I try to keep a check on my energy levels these days as the balance is very easily unsettled.
I hope you enjoy your road trip.
I can relate to so many points—managing energy levels (when it feels like I'm entering a stage of life where they're in shorter in supply), being present with my family, keeping my body healthy, keeping burnout at bay (that's a lesson I don't need again, AND writing, which I love, but it requires headspace and time—as you know. It all feels like too much some days, honestly. And it takes time to find yourself again after being thrown off.
I really admire your honesty and willingness to share this vulnerable moment. You are most certainly not alone! Wishing you deep rest and energy restored.❤️
Beautiful honest sharing Claire and one of the key issues of our time, how we live sustainably within our energies as women. I’ve done some big work over the past 5 years with Alexandra Pope ( Wise Power & Wild Power and have been living well and creating within the inner seasons of my menstrual cycle. Now post menopause I’m guided by the moon cycle… it’s been a game changer for me…with fatigue post big health issues in my forties and as a new writer in my fifties. I resonated with how you felt leaving the quiet autumn, winter energy of the home, even though you were nourished by the summer energy of the festival. ❤️
Thanks for sharing this Claire. This is something I'm wrestling with at the moment, how to do enough things that bring me life and are good for me, without overdoing it, as I need lots of energy for my kids as a mum and parent carer. Add in changing hormones and lack of sleep and it's tough. I miss the energy and freedom of my twenties, but need to adjust and embrace this new stage with wisdom and grace!
An awful lot, Claire. I’m not surprised you were a little short on reserves. Jonathan and I were chatting about how a trip to Edinburgh can now feel like our old trips to London. Everything feels so fast compared to our life here in the Borders.
I withdrew from Story Fest because I knew it would be a lot for me emotionally (being away from baby) but also energetically.
Hope you’ve managed to come home to yourself this weekend. I’ve felt disconnected too and feel the moon had a part to play 🌝
Really enjoyed listening to this. I totally get the whole nervous system shake-up and the awareness of how doing something like the festival has a knock-on effect. You have a lot to juggle and navigate, and I’m glad you acknowledge this.
Your voice note also reminded me that I’d thought about recording short notes and that maybe I should just do it and stop thinking about it.
So lovely to listen to this and your honest feeling about it all, only makes me love you more! Totally understand about festival energy, having done events in my corporate life I can totally relate, it’s a massive high and then exhaustion and a flat feeling afterwards. On Monday I fell asleep on the sofa at 4pm, and I was only a visitor! Keep looking after you, and thanks for sharing ❤️